Am I Slightly Clinically Depressed?

I have gone to a lot of thinking this past few days and I tried to reflect on my life and where had it gone so far. It felt really hard on me since I have never been this sad yet contented in my life. My work is on the graveyard shift which gave me time to attend events but sometimes sleep is not consistent. 

I have to adjust with the growing workload in the office with many of my peers are going out one by one and it is getting lonelier. I recently got my iPad which gave me this liberty to blog more with a better tablet that I had one before (And I think I want to sell it soon). This is actually my birth month yet this is the most pressuring time for me. I think I have acquired all the things I need for my next project and I am willing to resign soon. I never really liked enjoyed taking calls, but I can provide service. 

Last 24 Days of Year 24

Many people may hide or deny their age because it would be a sign of being old. But I do see this differently as the a sign of maturity and achievement. Age is indeed is just a number but young is an attitude, KC Concepcion would say in a excerpt from her shampoo commercial. Which actually makes sense and is my mantra in life about age.

25 is an age that is not that old but not too young. An age where an average person may have reached achievements but not that far also. This number is also a usual age for starting a family and having kids. And most of all, its the perfect age of a Quarter Life crisis.

As a 24 year old, I feel that I have not yet reached my goals, but have reached other great things. With just one (or two) year/s left in college is in a standstill due to financial matters, I should have graduated this year if everything went as planned. Plus the fact that I don't have a love life (right now), makes me more like a forever alone meme guy than a success baby.

Faithless - New Book, New Life.

Seriously, I do need to do something big this year 2012, if in case this will the end of the world. And aside from arranging my blogs and getting a new job, I am thinking of reviving my fiction writing skills again to start and finish a story. With Manual to Lyf now in the works again and felt somehow inspired to do a new story called Faithless, I hope to be more active in doing what I think I am destined to do and to share it with the world.

Indeed this word has struck me and will also have a big impact in my life, making this one a step further to what I used to write about.  And I do admit to have a love life (very) soon, which makes it a new experience for me. I'd also lost faith in so many things especially last year which  I entered a hell of suffering and hatred. Although on the brighter side, indeed I have grown into a better and blessed man. With people behind me, making me feel a worthy part of their lives had made a mark on me. 

I therefore invite you to join me until we have this story published (in paper) and can also bring inspiration. And to end this post with an excerpt from Science and Faith by the Speaks which provided inspiration (and hopefully) a soundtrack for this.

"You can break everything down to chemicals but you can't explain a love like ours"