In the past year, many things happened which is also the same this year. Five years ago, I am a student. Today I am still and student, but graduating (hopefully this March). Changes, it happens fast, it happens slow. And though you may stop on things, which you think ends permanently but blooms again for a new season.
It seems that I do need to get back in writing my thoughts to help me in my work and also in my studies. I loved to voice out my feelings and put them on a something permanent. So I can look back whenever I get out of the way, when things don't go my way, when I declare today is the end of the world. It's indeed an exercise for the mind, for the imagination that wants to be heard, for ideas needed to be recorded and executed. Maybe I would write something epic, maybe I'll write something that will create a revolution.
looking back to assess my life again, it is still a big mess, financially unstable, slightly overweight, zero love life, far from my family. How low can I go? But I need to think and act, to make up all the things that I left unnoticed. That I have a lot of blessings and talents that the Lord gave me.
In the Gospel yesterday, Elijah told the widow that her flour and oil will never dry out, and indeed it was overflowing. It was more than enough for her and her child. I then realized that, hey I do need to see that my jar is not emtpy, I just need to trust in what I have and I will be provided with all that I need. I also remembered the movie Suckerpunch, not just because of the characters, but the life lesson that it thought me. I have all of my weapons, now fight!
Now back to blogging, writing the novel/s and drawing. It's time for a reset.